everyone gets increasingly bored with work, or is it just me? the thought of essays and internal assessments i dislike, to the core! when's the last time i ever had a chance to laze around the house without having to bother about anything, without being judged by my parents for not doing work, for slacking off. i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, but me putting in the time to accomplish good grades or to get my assignments over and done with, i find it increasingly so that i wouldnt disappoint my parents. i feel terribly guilty. i know all the talk about how this whole education is mine, and that im working for my benefit not others, and all i should think about is for myself to achieve something good because its my future. but its really come to a point where, im doing all these just so that mummy wouldnt accuse me of wasting a three day holiday away, just so that i wouldnt say no when im asked if i've finished my work. just so that i can tell myself i didnt waste my two years in this course. not to mention the pressure as the younger one, with other people before you. the comparison, the weight placed on your shoulders to out do them, to not repeat their mistakes. doesnt help that all these added together, makes me so afraid of failure. ultimately, im so afraid i would disappoint my parents. sadly, i know i shouldnt feel this way, but i cant help but think like that once in awhile.

everyone gets increasingly bored with work, or is it just me? the thought of essays and internal assessments i dislike, to the core! when's the last time i ever had a chance to laze around the house without having to bother about anything, without being judged by my parents for not doing work, for slacking off. i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, but me putting in the time to accomplish good grades or to get my assignments over and done with, i find it increasingly so that i wouldnt disappoint my parents. i feel terribly guilty. i know all the talk about how this whole education is mine, and that im working for my benefit not others, and all i should think about is for myself to achieve something good because its my future. but its really come to a point where, im doing all these just so that mummy wouldnt accuse me of wasting a three day holiday away, just so that i wouldnt say no when im asked if i've finished my work. just so that i can tell myself i didnt waste my two years in this course. not to mention the pressure as the younger one, with other people before you. the comparison, the weight placed on your shoulders to out do them, to not repeat their mistakes. doesnt help that all these added together, makes me so afraid of failure. ultimately, im so afraid i would disappoint my parents. sadly, i know i shouldnt feel this way, but i cant help but think like that once in awhile.